11/5/10

Ok, OVER the meds.  Can't sleep, feel like a basted turkey ready to pop.  Pior to this adventure (lack of better terms) I HAD lost approximagtely 28lbs...  The GOOD way, eating right, working out, none of the crap that I adopted as a child/teenager regarding eating disorders.  I have gained all that back in bloating/water weight.  I guess that is one big issue and always has been with me.  Weight.  Actally, it has been an issue with my family since I can remember.  I guess that is why I struggle so much with the concept.  Not really sure what to think.  I see my family and either I look "healthy.... a.k.a. FAT) or like I have lost.  I guess I there isn't really a reason to love me for me.  I have had a lot of issues, who could blame me.  However, in this phase of my life, it is a good thing.  And, yes, almost all 28lbs is back.  It is not forever, it is bloating from the endless shots.
This whole process has taken quite the toll, not just on me, but on my loving wonderful husband.  For the LOVE, he has to put up with me.  And he is doing so well I swear the man is up for saint-hood.
I was a little put "A-back" by today.  Dr's appt and the follicles, then dentist appt and the fact that (Yes, LISA) my dentist sucked, remember flying teeth???  There maybe a repeat of dental entertainment...  Bet I can hit another client with a flying tooth!!!
We are trying to keep in mind, I have been doing everything that is expected and it only takes one fertilized "egg" to make a baby.  I guess that brings me to another point...  There are currently 3 viable, so we discussed implanting two.  I know that is a decision to make at the time, however, one very important to consider.  My saving grace, my mother.  She will be here for the initial and secondary outcome.  Thank you mom!!!
Well, regardless of the meds, I must try to sleep as the next dose comes soon.  If you would like to secure an investment, try the small circular bandaids as my stomach is currently COVERED in them.  Beach-Babe of the month????  HA!  Not so much!
Love to all!!!!  Please keep us, Joe, I and Quiz-pi-upen-que in your thoughts!!!  (That would be Joe's pick for baby names"....  BaHaHaHaHa!!!!  I love my husband!!!